Sonnet of life

A sonnet is a first  kiss

which you will forever remember

and always will miss

The sweet kiss so soft so innocent so warm upon your lips

A sonnet is a flower bouquet

It smells so deliciously of freedom of sunshine

Of honesty

It warms your friend’s heart and you she knows we will forever be

A sonnet is family

She is around you, she supports you

No matter how bad the agony

A sonnet is love

A love that pleasures us

In the darkest of hours and will ever last

One Lovely Blog Award

I am nominated for the “One Lovely Blog Award” and would like to say thank you to Kathy who nominated me

one lovely blog award

Here are the rules that accompany the award:
1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog
2. List the rules and display the award
3. Add 7 facts about yourself
4. Nominate 10 – 15 bloggers for the award, and comment on one of their posts to let them know

So here are 7 facts about me:

  1. Patience does not exist in my world. Yes, I have to admit it, I am not very patient.
  2. I hate to repeat myself
  3. I have quite a few tattoos
  4. We move house due to work approximately every two years
  5. Right now my new notebook and specially the UK keyboard is stressing me out as I have to search for dots etc.
  6. I am gluten,- lactose,- and soya intolerant and I am still dying inside when I look at the sweet shelves in supermarkets!!!
  7. I prefer the cold over heat and secretly turn the radiator off without my husband realizing

I nominate the following:


You should check their blogs there are some very funny and talented people out there!

Lost Love

You left me shivering out in the cold

Was that not enough?

You gave me fever when you kissed me

But you shut me out of your world

Was that not enough?

So many words left unspoken

Why does it hurt so much?

Sadness embraced us taking us down

Was that not enough?

You are gone, left me broken

Was that not enough?

Searching for my heart I am tired I wish to give up

Now, now that is enough!

Once you have a family the money is gone!

A few weeks ago I went with my children and husband to the Metrocentre in Newcastle. Actually I don´t really like huge shopping centers, I prefer small shops, specially second-hand shops. However. I went to Richard Nicolls to the bag area and the object of desire was a  cute little  Mulberry handbag.

Believe it or not the beauty cost 650,-GBP! For some of you it might be just peanuts. But for me, well I stood there, touching this soft handbag and even got a bit upset because I knew I can´t afford it! So with a big sigh I put it back on the shelve and said good-bye. On the way home I went all quiet dreaming about the handbag. Don´t get me wrong, I am no handbag addict! Really! The only thing I own which comes close to a handbag is a Fred Perry cotton shopper! Of course hubby said, I can have it if I really want it. But as much I wanted it, I am not that stupid. I rather pay all bills and have money left on the bank!

So for the rest of the day I was sad. Sad that I can´t afford a very pricey handbag followed by anger! Anger because I felt so stupid!

Before I had children (for those who are new to my blog, I have 4 children), I spend all my money on cheap clothes, food, and  went out clubbing every weekend for a long time. I was one of those stupid little kids who didn´t think of tomorrow. Why save money? I want to have fun and live! That´s how I thought!

But eventually reality bit and keeps on biting me in my nice little bum (yes, I train hard for it, this morning I went running with Cash in his stroller and we made every single hill!!!):

If you don´t save any money and I don´t mean just a few bob, you are (sorry for saying it like that) in the shit! Once you have children you need to spend the money on them. Not particularly because you have to, no because you like to of course. And once you have a family, of course you need to spend money on your car which almost falls apart! Did I mention I was so desperate, that I wanted to open a donation account? I thought “when  a woman gets a new pair of boobs donated, surely there will be people out there who will send me money for a proper car…” But when I was on this website (I can´t even recall the name), I was embarrassed, because there where account holders, who really needed money, so I ditched the silly thought!

When you are young you tell yourself, I can still buy me nice designer furniture, clothing, a car or house later! No, you can´t! Every month something new happens. Car bills, school uniforms, school trips, the cat is ill (of course you don´t want that poor thing to suffer, so you go to the vet), dental treatments (we don´t want to end up without any teeth left in the head), mess bills, general bills (house etc.) and of course you need to buy food, sometimes you need new clothes. The list goes on and on…

So I might be only in my mid 30s, but let me tell you this:

Don´t be stupid like I was, and waste your money. Invest in good furniture, quality clothes, one or two posh handbags and save money!!!

I know, I know, money can´t buy you happiness and I am rather poor like a church mouse than unhappy with a lot of money, but sometimes I wished I would have spent my money a bit wiser-

Than I would be able to afford this handbag or other pricey little things women think can´t live without them! SIGH…..


Never forgotten

Granny used to throw us out

Deep deep in the forest you thought

The snow was glistening in the winter sun

You and me on our bikes

It was so much fun

You smile at me as it begins to snow

We stick our tongues out and begin to glow

Today I am out in the forest all on my own

Gone are the funny days and I frown

Dearly you are missed and I start to cry

wondering why is that why oh why

Can men and women be “just friends”???

It is 7:13pm. I am sitting in my cognac coloured Chesterfield chair, wearing my grey pyjama. I lathered honey on my face because since I live in the UK, I get spotty from the chlorine in the tapwater.

And while I sit here cross leged I wonder, can women and men be just friends?

Everything inside me wants to scream YES they can! And not only because one party might be gay.

Since I was a little girl, I was always better with boys than with girls. Boys where so much more fun to be around, they didn´t get upset about bad or nasty jokes, you could punch them without them being upset and you could be rough without them crying like a little baby! No offence girls, but you must admit, we can be a bit touchy!!!

I believe the reasons why men like to be friends with me is, that I am a bit like them. I can laugh about me, I´ve got a huge ego (gosh, I am so hot, I could burn myself, GRIN), but I don´t flatter myself over my look, and most importantly, I don´t judge a book by it´s cover.

I have to admit, I love to be around men! Purely because I mustn´t watch my mouth, I can speak what I think. And the opposite sex surely feels the same way.

So I thought at least! But life taught me better. I was friends with a really nice man for 13 years! But after 13 years, he led me down on my birthday, he didn´t even phone. I found out he had a crush on me for a while but he knew he didn´t have a chance because to me, he was like a brother! I loved him, really! Just not the way he wanted or expected me to. I still miss him every now and then.

On my 18th birthday in a club I met a cute guy. Well I was very drunk. All my girlfriends said to me “look at him, are you serious???” They just couldn´t get it. A week later I met him again, and boy believe me when I say my friends where right, what did I think??? I only recognised him because of his short hight. But it wasn´t his looks, it was his personality. Don´t get me wrong, he was a sweet person, just not for me! So I told him, that I made a mistake and that I don´t feel a  connection. So we just stayed friends.

At least so I thought (again)! After over 10 years of friendship he also led me down. When I called him he was always preoccupied with other things and didn´t pay much attention. I tried to talk to him about it…… He always said, he would never find someone as good- looking and great as me… In the end he tried to get away from me by ignoring my emails and phonecalls. Maybe it was his attempt to forget me. Nowadays I think it was the right thing for him to do, to cut all strings if you want to move forward, but back then it just hurt to lose another dear friend.

And once I made the mistake to sleep with a good friend of mine. We got together, though I´ve told him, we shouldn´t as I wasn´t ready and thought it was a silly one-off thing. But when you are young and get told, “you would hurt me even more, if you leave now without being my girlfriend”, specially when his father  has just died, what do you do?! Of course you stay with him just to hurt him even more two years later by telling him, that it is over! We are still in contact over Facebook every now and then but he insists until this day, that I have hurt him the most of all persons!

And even “friends” tried to kiss me at some point.

Awww it is a pain in the …! Unfortunately I must say,

NO! Men and women can´t just be friends!!!

I bet, one of you will say, yes it is possible, I have a dear friend since Anno… but believe you me when I say, one day that person wants to be more than just a friend. BIG SIGH.


Blogger Recognition Award

Many thanks to BrewNSpew

for nominating me for the Blogger Recognition Award

These as far I know should be the rules:

1. You must thank the person who nominated you and include a link to their   blog.
2. You must list the rules and display the award
3. Write a bit about how your blog got started
4. Give some advice to new bloggers
5. You must nominate 15 other bloggers and leave a comment on one of their posts to let them know they have been nominated

Why I started my blog

To keep a long story short, I started my blog because I am looking for a purpose in life (job wise) and have to find this purpose within two years. After two years, my youngest one Cash will join school and I´d like to find a job which really fullfills me or to make this blog so succesfull, that I can live from it.

I would prefer the second option, but if people think I am boring or talent free, at least I´ve tried but hopefully met a lot of interesting people!!!

Advise to new bloggers

The start is always or often a bit difficult, but don´t give up. Write a list of topics you would like to talk about. Everyday there is something new I can ad to my list and it really helps to sort out my thoughts!

My nominees: