Category: Music

Being emotional

It has been over a year since my grandma died.

When my husband told me after I got back from my shift in the evening, I cried.

One of those long, loud, raw heartbreaking cries. It didn’t last long.

I cried it out while my husband held me.

I did not cry at the funeral. I didn’t want to. Didn’t want the others to see me like that.

But every time I see a grandma and her grandchildren together, I have tears in my eyes.

The pain does not lessen. It is a constant ache and I know I will be feeling like this forever.

I am certain it is because I can’t hear her voice anymore, can’t phone her up to ask for advice.

That’s what I miss the most. The advice… Advice how to handle things, to hear her opinion.

I lost the most important person in my life….

But that is life, right? Life gives and life takes….

I will survive this with a sad smile.

Franky

What happened to good music???

When I watch tv in the evening, I have a bit of a ritual just before I go to bed.

I check the time (usually I go to bed before 9pm, I need my beauty sleep, okay?!) and switch to the Sky music channels. Everyone who got Sky tv knows, there are a lot. I just love to listen to a nice song before I join the sheep in the land of dreams.

So I scrolled down, went from channel to channel until I came across

“Greatest love songs ever”, or something along the line. “Wonderful”, I thought, all happy to hear some nice favourite songs.

I clicked on it and on screen came Justin Timberlake’s “Cry me a river”.

No offense Justin, I like some of your songs, probably because some have some really nice grooves, but “Cry me a river”??? Really??? Greatest love song???

Before I clicked on it, I thought about

Etta James “At last”… Joe Cocker’s “You are so beautiful”… or (very cheesy)

Whitney Houston’s “I will always love you”…

You know, songs with finesse, real voices who don’t need additional electronic help to sound good…

When I listen to music, I don’t want to hear f-words, how they get into someones knickers and have sex in detail.

Of course “back then”, 50s…80s… they sang about the same things, but the lyrics where much nicer and somehow hidden…

Maybe I am just old fashioned, older than I actually am… but I think it is a sad thing that nowadays you have to look your best, have the best music video and best special effects to make it… If you have the just mentioned, it doesn’t really matter when your voice actually is a mix of Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck, BIG SIGH…

Now I share a classic…