Category: First love

Your First Love Is The Greatest?!

It is said that apparently your first love is the greatest. But if your first love is the greatest, why does it not last (in most cases)?

I like to believe the greatest love is the one you stay and grow old with. Someone you genuinely love and can’t imagine your life without him or her.

Like all/many of us I met my first love at a very young age. Of course it didn’t last which proves that he wasn’t my greatest love!

Many times before I had crushes and every now and again even huge crushes. And yes I even got married as at the time it felt right. But never have I believed in love at first sight or the term “soulmate”….

….until now!

From the first time I saw his pictures on his profile to the first hug and kiss, I just knew!

I. JUST. KNEW!!!

I never felt this way before.

Everything feels right, everything is easy going! And the most important thing to me, I can be as wild and free and geeky as I want and don’t feel restricted in any way.

I love everything about him and I wouldn’t change a single thing!

I want to grow old with him and turn into raisins, racing each other in our wheelchairs- possibly in snail pace!

That, my friends, is called “greatest love”!

Isn’t it awesome to be in your very own love bubble?!

Franky

Be Happy For Your Ex

A break up is never a nice occasion but sometimes not avoidable.

When I broke up with someone, I always tried to remain friendly and when someone broke up with me (yes, that happened, can’t even believe it myself), I tried to swallow my pride for being dumped and put on a brave face.

The brave face always turned into a “genuine” face as I never cried long after an ex who didn’t deserve me in the first place, otherwise he would have stayed!

However. Lets get back to when I got dumped and saw my ex with someone new. I never held grudges and thought them all the best. Okay, I admit it, of course I thought to myself, that I am so much better looking… but that’s it, I swear!

Never ever would I have tried to tear them apart by for example, weaselling my way back into his life or even worse spread lies. I think to do that is very low!

Plus there is the thing with karma. It will come for you and it might hit you harder than expected, so do avoid it, behave, swallow biting remarks and hope for the best!

That’s what you should do when you break up: Try to stay civil. Unless you are a teenager. In that case you are excused!

Franky

Denial

I don’t eat

And I don’t sleep

Though there is nothing

I’d rather do but sleep

To make it to the next day

My brain is able to comprehend

But my heart is in denial

About you ever coming back

To me

Definition Of Insanity

Half a decade later

Broken so many times

I lost count

It should hurt but it feels sweet

I just can’t fight you

It feels so right

It can’t be wrong

You keep walking with my heart

You

Are my safe place

Your voice in my mind gives me the best kind of goosebumps

Dancing around from my head to my toes

Your crazy has my crazy completely transfixed

Never thought I could be your

Bonnie and you my

Clyde

Nothing can stop us

Sorrow and regret tries to follow

In our wake of hot mess

But we are always a step ahead

And all I can see is

You

And me

 

 

 

 

 

Cosmopolitans “First Love”

I have been a Cosmopolitan reader for many many years!

I read the German Cosmopolitan, the American (which is not really my thing, sorry) and my favourite one, the UK Cosmopolitan.

Usually I found great pleasure reading about peoples “First Love”, but lately I can’t take it serious anymore.

Just today I read the February edition and the ex couple was 20 years of age!

20! Years! Of! Age!

Please tell me, what does a 20 something know of first love?! How much experience can a still very young person have, to say, “yes, it was love, my first love!”

I thought Cosmopolitan is for every age group but it was a long time since  they interviewed ex couples past 30.

Is it, because most readers want to read about younger people? Or is it because most people past 30 are in happy (married) relationships and wouldn’t want to participate? Or is the age group all of a sudden too old? But then again, if this magazine wants to have younger followers, could said followers actually afford the very fancy and pricey products which shine back at you the second you open the glossy papers?!

Hm. I don’t know, I just find it annoying. Or does that mean, I am getting old?

Franky

Perception of Joker

Yesterday hubby and me watched the new ‘Joker’ movie and it was great and sad and disturbing and I could identify with the character in so many ways…

Many of us have seen ‘Joker’ movies before and in general the character of the ‘Joker” is a mental person, a twisted one, an evil persona or so it seems on the first look.

When I watched the movie the person I have seen was a deeply sad person. A man who felt invisible to society, to people around him, to women to everyone really. I felt that people would look down at him, laugh at him and no matter how hard he would try, it would never seem enough to be accepted or appreciated or just be honest with him!

How many of you felt that way before? How many of you felt alone? How many of you thought, you are not good enough…. at work, at relationships, friendships….? How many of you felt mistreated? How many of you felt unloved and not pretty enough only because you do things different or think in an unconventional way? How often have you thought, you will never be better or overcome your ‘working class status’?

In today’s world people look at you and judge you in the first few seconds, they make up their mind without putting the effort in, in getting to know you. What for a sad sad thing to do, I hang my head in shame for everyone who acts this way!

Nowadays the first reaction when people hear that someone has mental health problems like bipolar or a form of schizophrenia, ADHS, anxiety and lots of other things is disgust or comments like “they should get their act together”! Why not show a bit compassion, why not ask the person next to you how he/she is doing? Why not ask yourself if you yourself is right in the head? Aren’t we all a bit mental? Don’t we all have problems? For some their problems might be nothing major, for others it might be the end of the world….

So here I sit now, reminiscing…. and let me tell you the following:

I don’t know you, I don’t know your story but I know you are out there and I feel for you! It might not be today or tomorrow, but the day will come where you see the light in the end of the tunnel and you will feel better! And whoever tries to tell you, you are not right or not good enough, do not listen to them! You are unique and perfect in every way and you are loved and you will be cherished! You might not know it now or not have found the one just yet, but there is someone who can’t wait to meet you and give you what you are looking for and what you deserve! Don’t forget to breathe, do smile, do laugh and make the best of life as you deserve nothing but the best!

Do not give up, ever!

Franky