My beloved huge ego… it’s gone. Flew away with the four winds the second I met my other half!
It’s funny how we act differently in every relationship.
In previous relationships I would have always acted like I am Gods gift. If it was over with a guy I would cry for two, maybe even three days and move on. If I had something to say I was quite bland. I spoke my mind without thinking about whether I hurt his feelings. I would still do my thing as if I was single.
Now for the first time ever, I actually wonder if I am enough for my man. I wonder if he will still love me in a couple of years or move on with someone else.
Back then I didn’t give a flying poop when I heard stories of former lovers, now it kind of bothers me and I can feel myself tense up.
I am not insecure and I am perfectly happy in our relationship. I think those thoughts pop up because I genuinely care and love him so much.
I guess if you really love someone it comes naturally to please your man/woman and I am really enjoying it. And when those thoughts are floating around my mind it is a sign of not taking him for granted.
So I am okay with my ego having a party somewhere else with someone else. I don’t need it anymore.