…because I am constantly exhausted. No maybe not exhausted, but tired.
Yes, I am constantly tired!
I have been off this week as I still had some holidays left and still I go to bed at 9 o’clock the latest.
I just received the new rota for next week and when I checked how many guests there are for breakfast, I am already dreading the day I have to be back there at 6am!
Usually I have to get up at 4:30am, leave the house around 5:15am, drive 30 minutes to the place I work, finish at noon, drive back, have to really press my ass cheeks together to get some exercise in, leave again at 2:30pm to pick up babies from school.
In-between I try to squeeze all household chores in and at 6 in the evening I wish someone would have mercy and shoot me.
By 7am I am in bed.
I usually tell my children not to use the word as it is a very strong word, but I start to hate my job.
I hate getting up that early.
I hate driving 30 minutes in the early morning. I know 30 minutes is nothing but when you are tired, 30 minutes can be very long!
My and my families happiness should come first, not a job which does nothing but exhaust you, is badly paid and people don’t appreciate you!
I applied for several jobs here nearby, even seasonal jobs, without success.
I heard people who started at the same time as me say:
“I stick it out for 6 month and than apply for other jobs as this right now will look very good in my CV!!!”
If that is the case, why don’t I get hired? Do employers think I am too qualified? If so, I should decide whether I am too qualified or not!
I would love an outdoors job somewhere nearby. I even applied for a job at a fish farm, but no one seems to want me.
I wish I could just quit, but unfortunately I need the money.
Guess I have to keep on looking and not give up hope.