Month: February 2019

I really want to quit my job…

…because I am constantly exhausted. No maybe not exhausted, but tired.

Yes, I am constantly tired!

I have been off this week as I still had some holidays left and still I go to bed at 9 o’clock the latest.

I just received the new rota for next week and when I checked how many guests there are for breakfast, I am already dreading the day I have to be back there at 6am!

Usually I have to get up at 4:30am, leave the house around 5:15am, drive 30 minutes to the place I work, finish at noon, drive back, have to really press my ass cheeks together to get some exercise in, leave again at 2:30pm to pick up babies from school.

In-between I try to squeeze all household chores in and at 6 in the evening I wish someone would have mercy and shoot me.

By 7am I am in bed.

I usually tell my children not to use the word as it is a very strong word, but I start to hate my job.

I hate getting up that early.

I hate driving 30 minutes in the early morning. I know 30 minutes is nothing but when you are tired, 30 minutes can be very long!

My and my families happiness should come first, not a job which does nothing but exhaust you, is badly paid and people don’t appreciate you!

I applied for several jobs here nearby, even seasonal jobs, without success.

I heard people who started at the same time as me say:

“I stick it out for 6 month and than apply for other jobs as this right now will look very good in my CV!!!”

If that is the case, why don’t I get hired? Do employers think I am too qualified? If so, I should decide whether I am too qualified or not!

I would love an outdoors job somewhere nearby. I even applied for a job at a fish farm, but no one seems to want me.

I wish I could just quit, but unfortunately I need the money.


Guess I have to keep on looking and not give up hope.


Siamese and breeding

After we bought our house I finally got to get two siamese kittens.

One at the end of December and one past Saturday.

Called “Blue” (boy) and “Belle” (girl) and yes it can sound like bluebell which is intended.

They are the cutest things ever. When we got Belle she was so curious and so affectionate, she followed you around and explored everything.

When we got  Blue he was and still is so scared. Only comes out when you pull him out from under the sofa or when no one but me is around.

Now the thing is:

I got Belle when she was only 8 weeks old and if I would have known that before I went to get her with my very excited daughter, I would have said “no”.

Belle tends to wee on my or my older son’s bed if no one pays attention! Oh or on the lamb fur carpet under my husbands desk, even when he sits there. She does however uses both litter trays. So for now we have to keep our bedroom doors shut to prevent accidents.

When I picked up Blue, who is nearly 12 weeks old, he was living with his siblings and mum and dad in a conservatory (heated) with all their equipment.

Though the private breeder said, the daughter sometimes plays with them, there seemed no real interaction with human family members/day to day chores and noises in the house.

And both kittens where also fed really cheap kitten food, or adult cat food.

So let me ask you:

Would you eat, lets say, a chicken which only contains 4% chicken and the rest is unhealthy crap? No, didn’t think so!

Both kittens where wormed and vaccinated, no pedigree papers. They where still expansive though.

When I breed my cats, they will be around my very noisy children, in our kitchen in a big warm cozy special box for all of them as long they are not able to use a litter tray.

They will be wormed, vaccinated and chipped and will not leave before they are AT LEAST 12 weeks old.

One breeder even told me, they trim their cats claws….. and that they thought it is a common thing to give them away when they are 8 weeks, eat solids and use the litter tray.

No! There is more to it, like social behaviour which they learn from their mother….


Right. As to my two additions:

One is scared, the other one fumes at the little one and likes to wee on beds.

I will be on my way to Pets at Home to get Feliway and hope they will get used to each other paired with lots of cuddles.


Confession of a driver

I have had my driving licence for around 22 years now and I only have once (!!!) tried to put air into my tyres-

until recently.

Yep, that is right, I only tried it once. Back then we did not have those fancy electronic machines who actually did it all for you. No, back then I got more air out than in and so I never tried it again.

I always made my father, husband or whoever was around do it for me.

But past Saturday I had to do it myself as my front tyres where almost flat, the garage’s air & cleaner was not working and I was actually on my way to Lanark to buy a siamese kitten.

So out I went to the next village/garage. Parked, read instructions, unplugged everything, coins in, pressure to 30, air on and voila, the air actually went and stayed in.

No big deal as it turns out.


A thought…..

Would it be selfish to tell you that after such long time I still miss you

though I know you don’t want to hear about it as it makes your heart heavy?