I think I lost my way!
I’ve been thinking that for a while now.
When I ask myself where I would like to see myself in 5 years, my answer would be:
In a job I really enjoy. A job which is enjoyable and earns me a bit of money!
The reality might be different though. I might be stuck like I am now. In a job which is convenient and pays the bills.
I am not a dumb person. I studied different things. I have diplomas for two different type of jobs and a lot of knowledge when it comes to other things I did.
I like learning new things and I love physical jobs! Jobs where I almost drop dead by the end of the day because it makes me feel like I actually did something useful!
A few days ago I found a trainee vacancy in Livingston for (I think it was) a ship or boat company. They where looking for someone who would assist with boat repairs etc.
I would have loved to apply for this job, but travel hours would have been too long.
Every week I check the ferry websites for their job offers. I know the seasonal job offers should be out soon and I wonder if I should sign up for a stcw training so I can apply. But I don’t want to pay a £1000 for a course and in the end I don’t get the job. Of course getting this certificate is no guarantee for employment but shouldn’t I do anything to go forward?
I feel lost. So lost! I bet everyone of you felt like this before and if not, well lucky you. It is not a nice feeling.
Well…it is 7:14pm, my uniform is already ironed and ready for tomorrow and I will be off to bed now.
Beauty sleep is essential and tomorrow might be a better day or the job opportunity!
Franky (who keeps her hopes up)