I came to realize that I did not appreciate many precious moments I experienced!
When my teenagers where little, all I wished for was them to grow up a bit faster to be more independent.
I felt tired all the time, and every day was just a rush. Rushing to kindergarten, rushing to school, rushing to work…
And before I knew it, my babies turned into teenagers… literally in a blink of an eye and what did I do? I did it again:
When I clashed, as so many times, with my teenage daughter, I wished for her to be older so that she could move out and live her own life.
That is an awful thing to do!
I should have tried to spend more time with them, should have cuddled them more and told them, how much I loved them, I should have surprised them more often with little things or picnics. I should have done that every single day until now and every day coming!
If we are lucky, children live at home for 18, maybe 22… or even 25 years and compared to a (hopefully) long life, that is nothing! Nothing!!! It is such a short time you get to spend with them.
If you are lucky, they love you enough to phone and visit you on a regular basis. And if you are really, really lucky, they even live close by, so that you also get to see your grand-babies!!!
SIGH…. big SIGH….
When I was not working because the children where too little, all I did was complaining because I didn’t get to go out of the house. Complaining how bored and isolated I felt.
Instead I should have been happy about the fact, that I am actually be able to spend so much time with my children, get to sleep more and do what ever I want.
And I know I should show my husband more affection. I know I should miss him when he is away because one day, he might not be around anymore and I might regret my (non-) actions.
In this case it is not funny how my perception has worked out for me. No, it is rather sad.
But this is life and life never goes the way we want it to.
Guess, I keep on trying, trying to be the best mom and wife I can be. Trying to make it better and trying to make the best of life.