Month: October 2015

E.E. Cummings Quote

Today I did too many things at a time.

While I tried to set up a Facebook page to connect it with my blog, I also had to check the dinner in the oven (I am famous for burning food!) and every time I left the dining room where I currently sit, my son Cash went straight to my notebook to press all sorts of buttons.

Meanwhile I had to check my invoice for the “Ben Nevis – Winter” Walk (a total of 300,-£ which hurts really bad) from

but couldn`t purchase it (maybe I am too dumb or too old to use online banking).  Also searching for sponsors online…

Then I needed to reply to the lovely company

“Handbag Makeover” where I send a handbag to I finally recently bought to make it look all nice again.

The food which I took out a minute ago, by the way, survived!

I also set up a second donate site but unfortunately can`t use it yet… Reason why I want another site is, because someone tried to hack my Paypal account- SO NOT NICE!!!

So I`ve been on the internet almost all day, oh and did I mention, I also did the laundry, walked Cailleach to school, went shopping for food (I got several complaints from my family because the fridge was empty) and have to go out again in a minute to get some sport items for my other daughter though my head is spinning?

I don`t know why or how I found this lovely quote:

To be nobody but yourself
in a world that`s doing it`s
best to make you somebody
else, is to fight the hardest
battle you are ever going to
fight. Never stop fighting.

E.E. Cummings

That just made my day because it is so true! Enough said for today!


Sporty Life Challenges Part II

I tried to add a site to my blog but for some reason it didn`t work, I just can`t find the site and it also seems that I am to dumb to add a Paypal link properly (any advise would be greatly appreciated). But okay here I go again:

Yesterday I applied for the “Ben Nevis – Winter” Walk and as I mentioned before, I am very excited because this is the very first timer ever, I do something on my own!

You don`t believe me? Well here are some examples of my life in the past:

When I was little I rather stayed inside than playing outside on my own
In school I stayed on the bench during break until break was over or someone asked me to play with her
When it was weekend and no one had time to go clubbing I also stayed at home
I never went to the pictures on my own or to a bar or to a cafe

The point is, I never did something alone because I am to shy to make the first move when it comes to approaching people. I was always the skinny girl, always shorter than everyone else, standing on her own…

I need to change that!!!

And I thought to myself, I would like to do a lot of those challenges like the winter walk and here in the UK are a lot of opportunities. The thing is, those opportunities are often charity ones (which is a good thing of course) and come with travel costs etc. And to be honest, I don`t have that much money to participate in as many I would like.

I want my dreams to come true, I don`t want to miss out!!! No one should!

And do you know what I also thought? Maybe that is my purpose! To participate in challenges to show women like me, that we can make it, that the little shy girl belongs to the past! That I built up something.

And that is why I need support! Yes money-wise, equipment-wise,

I need a sponsor

In return the sponsor can expect me to keep him/her up to date, I will wear they`re clothing, promote their companies. I will upload pictures from the events, will mention them and add links!

I know nowadays money is tight, but even if you are not able to donate, it would be great to share my page. And in case you can donate, here is the link:

The link should direct you to my Paypal donation site!

Thank you for your time!


Ben Nevis – Winter Walk PLEASE DONATE

For the first time ever, I am doing something just for myself! I must be mental, because I am so absolutely not the person who does things on her own except for shopping!

Usually I always need company when it comes to socializing. I would rather stay at home than go to the pictures, for a drink or clubbing!!! Really! I would be much too scared because I would feel like a weirdo all on my own and the fact that, unless someone talks to me first, I am unable to socialize by doing the first step doesn`t help either. I just don`t know how to approach people. Well I do but the fear to get rejected is just too much…

So this is what I just did:

I applied for the “Ben Nevis – Winter” walk beginning on 11. December 2015! Apparently to walk up to Mount Nevis takes between 8 – 10 hours (I am so excited I could wee myself). To participate I had to purchase a fee which was fine with me. But now comes the tough bit:

I have to raise at least 400,-£ for a charity of my choice which is “Willow”

The above link tells you everything about this foundation but to keep it short it makes (last) dreams come true for serious ill people between 16 – 40 years of age.

So if you read this it would be wonderful if you could donate (many a little makes a mickle) or at least share my link on your social websites! That would be greatly appreciated!!!


What ever you do, don`t lower your expectations!!!

For some reason I was always drawn to the bad guys. Or better they where drawn to me. I never looked for a boyfriend, they came to me like flies  to a cow!

I experienced gamblers, street fighters, druggies, psychos (the really bad ones like really really evil ones with twisted minds), mentally unstable still healing from a previous relationship…. you name it.

For different reasons it never worked out so that things ended sooner or later.

When I talked to my grandma, she said, “Well child, I think you should come down from your high horse and lower your expectations, you can`t have it all.” But I went “No, why would I do that? I don`t want to miss out on anything and lower my expectations would be exactly that!”

Another relationship ended and I remembered what my grandma said to me and I thought, maybe she is right, maybe my expectations are really too high. How likely is it to find someone who meets my standards?! It`s like the needle in the haystack. Very difficult if not impossible to find!

I decided to give it a go. I met a nice boy and we have been together 4 years in total. I did lower my expectations. For example was he younger than me, which normally puts me off as I am attracted to older men, but okay he was sweet and good-looking (grin). Unfortunately we  didn`t have anything in common but I thought, that is okay people say that can work.

But it didn`t. The last year was just a drought. I put a lot of effort in to make the relationship work because I didn`t want to fail again but at some point I realized, there was no love and it had to end. And the fact that I felt there isn`t much coming back from him didn`t help either! I also  realized that I shouldn`t have lowered anything as it was just a waste of time despite the nice time we once had!

I always wanted a man who is similar to me, mind wise. With a lot in common, looks is a minor matter but definitely  a plus if the desired person is a hottie!

So no! You shouldn`t lower your expectations! Follow your heart don`t listen what your brain whispers. Your heart and your guts are always right and in the end you will get there (I did)!


Sonnet of life

A sonnet is a first  kiss

which you will forever remember

and always will miss

The sweet kiss so soft so innocent so warm upon your lips

A sonnet is a flower bouquet

It smells so deliciously of freedom of sunshine

Of honesty

It warms your friend’s heart and you she knows we will forever be

A sonnet is family

She is around you, she supports you

No matter how bad the agony

A sonnet is love

A love that pleasures us

In the darkest of hours and will ever last

One Lovely Blog Award

I am nominated for the “One Lovely Blog Award” and would like to say thank you to Kathy who nominated me

one lovely blog award

Here are the rules that accompany the award:
1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog
2. List the rules and display the award
3. Add 7 facts about yourself
4. Nominate 10 – 15 bloggers for the award, and comment on one of their posts to let them know

So here are 7 facts about me:

  1. Patience does not exist in my world. Yes, I have to admit it, I am not very patient.
  2. I hate to repeat myself
  3. I have quite a few tattoos
  4. We move house due to work approximately every two years
  5. Right now my new notebook and specially the UK keyboard is stressing me out as I have to search for dots etc.
  6. I am gluten,- lactose,- and soya intolerant and I am still dying inside when I look at the sweet shelves in supermarkets!!!
  7. I prefer the cold over heat and secretly turn the radiator off without my husband realizing

I nominate the following:


You should check their blogs there are some very funny and talented people out there!

Lost Love

You left me shivering out in the cold

Was that not enough?

You gave me fever when you kissed me

But you shut me out of your world

Was that not enough?

So many words left unspoken

Why does it hurt so much?

Sadness embraced us taking us down

Was that not enough?

You are gone, left me broken

Was that not enough?

Searching for my heart I am tired I wish to give up

Now, now that is enough!